sigh…I LOVE my kids! lol I’ve been physically hurt by them before, just accidents that happen when we play sometimes like being poked in the eye, bruised by a toy, once dd accidently gave me a black eye by knocking her head into mine while I was holding her and playing. This takes the cake though.
Fri. I was talking to youngest ds. We were talking about Christmas and what he wanted to ask for. We were playing around too, as usual I was teasing him telling him if he wasn’t good he’d get a piece of coal or a plain ol’ rock! I was telling him all I wanted for Christmas was for him to try “other stuff”. Other stuff refers to food! He’s seriously the most picky eater in the world! Well I picked him up and we were laughing and talking and he swung the toy around he was holding. Actually it was a piece from his sister’s barbie castle, he’d been pretending it was a phone. It hit the bullseye. Hit me right in the eye, my eyeball. It HURT and I knew immediately I was hurt bad. Couldn’t see. Everything was gray out of the eye. The tears poured. I put a cold compress on it for awhile. Still almost 0 vision. Just the shape of things with a little color and mostly gray. Dh was gone to do errands. The other 2 kids were on the way home on the bus. Nothing I could do. Waited till dh got home then we discussed going to the ER. Didn’t want to do that. The eye looked fine. Wasn’t even red!! It did hurt bad though and no vision. I decided to find out which insurance I had to use and try to find a opthamologist that would see me on Sat.
Sat. AM got up to my eye swollen shut. The pain was unreal. Took a pain pill but it didn’t touch the pain. Called around and found a place that said they would have a opthamologist on duty. Light KILLED me, even through a closed eyelid. I wore my sunglasses with a towell held to my eye. When I got there they took me right in. The dr. put numbing drops in to be able to examine me. He starts coming at my eye with this strip of orange paper…it was dye. Put the dye in and examined me under a blue light. My cornea was ripped from near the tear duct almost all the way across my eye. He said it was very deep and jagged. Wanted to know what toy ds had!! lol Good thing it wasn’t his toy sword or something else equally damaging!! He was very concerned about the amount of swelling. Evidently that’s not quite normal to have such swelling of the eyelids. He left the room, came back and said he called another Dr. on consult and that dr. had assured him all my syntoms including the swelling and very, very excessive tearing were normal. ahh…OK. Got anti-biotic drops to put in and BURN my eye to death 4x per day and a big, ol’ black eyepatch! AYE MATEY!! lol All I need is a hook arm and a peg leg and I’m in biz! Sigh….said it would be 100% better in 24hrs. Not cured by then but better. Least he hoped! He gave me his home phone # to call him on Sun. if it wasn’t better or was worse!! Now what killed me is that all along I thought HE was a opthomologist. He gave me his card and there was Dr. in front of his name but underneath his name it said “optomatrist”!!! WTH?? No wonder he wanted a consult! He also wanted me to come in either today or tomorrow to see this other Dr. sigh…….is my eyeball going to fall out?? Well I can say that it’s a whole lot better today. Swelling has gone down a lot. Pain is a whole lot less (wow you wouldn’t believe how bad it hurt!!). I’m still wearing a patch though and the vision is not back completely. Now I can see but there’s like a “halo” of gray around everything….plus it’s still blurry. Amazingly it’s hard to do anything with only 1 functional eye!! Guess it’s something a person would have to adapt to. No way I can drive or even do much like reading, watching TV, and yes I’m on the computer but can’t do my graphics right now…it’s slow going, VERY slow going.
Here’s a couple of photos my oldest ds took….they aren’t the best quality, blurry because I wouldn’t let him turn on the flash…..hurt too bad. Ignore the frizzy bad, much in need of a cut hair! I had it in a ponytail all day and it hadn’t been washed! YUCK 
Looks like my good eye was also a little swollen…..
Here’s one of me in my pirate patch…good eye doesn’t look “good”!!
sigh…..pretty huh? I know what to be for Halloween now!
This isn’t it though. This doesn’t take the cake to what happened to me Sat. night. I’d take a ripped cornea any day over this mess….
I got to ride in a ambulance for the 1st time Sat. night, strapped into the gourney!
DISCLAIMER*****THIS IS GROSS!! DO NOT READ IF SQUEMISH!!
OK. Now that the disclaimer is out of the way! Sat. night dh put the 4th drop in eye. It KILLED me. Burned like heck. I tried to sit up and watch a little TV but that just wasn’t working. I just couldn’t do it. So I decided to go on to bed. I did and fell asleep. I wake up about a hour and a half later to feel what I thought was drainage going down the back of my throat. I coughed a little and laid there. Then changed positions. It got worse. I got up to go the bathroom and when I got in there I glanced in the mirror to see blood coming from my left nostril. Got a tissue and when I leaned forward the blood splashed through my hands and into the sink. I was like “WTF????”!! dh was asleep in the living room so I got a bath towel and went to wake him up. Back in the bathroom blood was splashing onto the floor. I open my mouth to talk and it gushes out of my mouth! I”m not kidding. It was GUSHING from both my nose and mouth!! dh puts me on the toilet telling me to lean forward and put pressure on my nose. I do but it doesn’t work. The blood is pooling in my mouth. He asks if he should call 911. At 1st I said no. After about 5 more mins. of blood splashing everywhere I said YES. He calls and I start to freak out. I honestly thought I was dying. I really don’t remember being quite so scared. It was really odd because then I started feeling like it wasn’t even me, almost like I was watching myself. The ambulance finally gets there and the guys start asking me what happened. I told them and told them about my eye and takiing these strange eyedrops. The put the b/p cuff on and I knew I’d be going to the hospital. I’ve had high, very high b/p for quite a while now. I’ve been treated on and off for it. When dh and I were both laid off I couldn’t afford the script for it or to go to the Dr. anymore….there’s no way you can pay for a office visit or a script when you cna’t even buy food!!! When dh did get insurance I just didn’t go. It’s hard sometimes to even part with $20 for the co-pay. sigh…the kids and things like their lunches etc…come 1st.
Anyway the ambulance guy turns and says something really low to the other one and then asks which hospital I want to go to. I refused to answer or do anything until they told me what my blood pressure was. Now remember I’m also freaking out about all the blood!! Not to mention the mere word hospital makes my heart beat very, very fast!! I knew my pressure was probably stroke level. I can’t remember now the exact # but it was 200 and something over 100 and something……………he finally told me.
We go get in the ambulance, they hook me up to a heart moniter and tell me to lean forward with pressure on the bridge of my nose. THEN the guy says, “Is your eye swollen?? Why??” sigh…I had to go through it all AGAIN.
They do the whole 9 getting me to the hospital. Lights and sirens. I get there and begged them to let me walk but no…….so I get in a room and admitably was a total bitch to the nurses. I knew the lecture was coming about my pressure. I told her not to go there. That I KNEW the dangers but was having a hard time and didn’t need to hear it again. That part of the reason I put off going to the DR. was because of the lectures………..Mentally I have a hard time with fear of different things, anxiety and that is a HUGE anxiety producer for me, hearing the lectures.. She just shrugged me off and said, “Oh well then. Die.” nice huh?
They didn’t appreciate my attempt at humor. Like when they asked what I weigh I said, “Too much!!” lol I didn’t get any laughs with that one. So THEN I guess cause I looked like I’d been beat with the swollen shut eye and all that blood they start asking if I’m afraid at home and if I’m being treated badly etc…LOL!! Poor dh……. So I go through the whole story AGAIN.
They hook me up to a b/p machine to moniter my pressure. They give me this thing that looks like a clip and feels like a clothes pin to put on the bridge of my nose, clamping it to try and stop the bleeding. sigh…..I call dh who had woke the 2 youngest (oldest ds was on his 1st sleepover) and they were on the way. Soon they came in and I had the kids crawling on my gourney and asking lots of questions and telling me about the dried up blood all over my mouth. lol
Dr. FINALLY comes in and looks in my nose, the bleeding had finally stopped. My b/p was down but still very high at one point I know it was something like 159/125…something like that. He says he can’t find the source of the bleeding. Could be due to the high b/p along with the pain from the eye. Could actually be due to the eye drops, allergic reaction. Lots of things but he said since I have a history of high b/p it wasn’t like it came out of the blue. I promised him I’d call my family dr. and go in. He gave me a b/p pill and I had to wait a hour to see if the pressure went down which it did leaving me feeling like I couldn’t keep my eyes open. I was sooo darned tired and in pain with the injured eye. sigh. He came in and said he’d release me just had to type up the discharge stuff. Well he never came back! The kids were getting very antsy and so was I, went out to ask the nurses several times when he’d be back. She tells me how busy they are all the while never moving from in front of her computer moniter. I could see her from my room……grrr… After about another almost 2hours of waiting for him to come back in we just got our stuff together and LEFT. Nurse sees us leaving and asks, “Are you leaving?” lol NO. I”m just going for a walk. Yes I told her. With the 2 small children we can’t wait any longer for him to get to us with the discharge instrustions. I know what to do…and that’s to go to my family dr. and get this b/p taken care of once and for all.
Sorry this was so long! I’m feeling better today. The eye is doing better. Swelling is down, pain is much better. I am giving myself today as I know my Dr. isn’t in on Mondays, and will call to make a appt. with her tomorrow. I might even go ahead and call this afternoon for a appt. UGH. I have to admit whatever caused the bleed. It scared me and last night, alone while dh was at work, I stayed up for a LONG time, afraid to lay down to sleep.
I truely think the eye drops had something to do with it. I think I had a severe reaction to them. I googled them and there are some very bad, severe side effects to them……rare but they DO happen. Nose/throat problems were part of this list…so was anaphactic shock and breathing difficulties! You wouldn’t think eye drops could do that but these are VERY strong anti-biotic drops that have to be carefully monitered. I called the eye dr. at his home yesterday and he said to quit taking them, which I had already. Said he didn’t think that would be the cause because it was rare but that it surely couldn’t be ruled out. THEN he thinks to ask what meds. I’m allergic to!! After the fact!! I’m allergic to penicillian. He thought that might have something to do with it and wanted me to come in today and see the other eye dr. We’ll see. sigh…….I’m just tired.
If you’ve made it through all this rambling tale thank you. Becky I was going to e-mail you, I’ll e-mail you so you can read this. I’ll be scarce on my CT work for sure for awhile. I almost had another something cool finished but………. I don’t know when I’ll physically be able to work on any of it.
Upsets me too cause I found more than 1 part time job, seasonal openings to start soon, that fit my needs but I can’t go apply or interview until I can see, drive again and get rid of the eye patch.
Thanks again…you’re all so supportive. I know everyone will understand if I’m even more scarce than usual.
